In the aftermath of Not-Kirk’s latest illness I reevaluated my choices. In the middle of his illness I was so caught up in commitments that I started to feel like I was failing at everything. Turns out I was failing at being everything. Big difference. Today I gave myself permission to quit. Not only quit, but quit the things that didn’t bring joy to my life. As someone who firmly believes that life’s rewards are rarely at the end of an easy road, this was equal parts freeing and terrifying.
I quit a committee. I bought some pre-made food (do you all know that we don’t eat any processed food, opting for me to bake/cook everything from scratch instead?) to get us through the next couple of weeks. I put all of our socks in a giant bin that everyone digs through to find a pair in lieu of matching them up from the wash. And the big one… I joined the 21st century and purchased a cell phone. I should say I bought a cell phone I intend to use to respond to phone calls with text messages when I don’t feel like talking.
Life is all about choices. This month I choose to make life easier on myself, even if that means loosening up and accepting that I can’t always live a life that could be featured in “Do it all and Smile, too!!” Magazine.